I'm so grateful for the love and support! Speechless 💛 Today I'm finally launching my FanClub! I've been apprehensive about posting free content... I went through a really annoying exposure situation that reached my family, so I haven't been around for a while. And after I came back, I didn't feel ready to launch the FanClub until I made some "improvements." I thought nothing was good enough. But now, I feel like I've lifted 500 tons of burdens off my shoulders... of pure self-demand and limiting perfectionism. Happy to be taking this step!

Those who follow me know... I've always been here, coming and going, without ever truly investing or creating content as I'd like. I lacked the time and, to be quite honest, the courage to expose myself more. But things change. We mature, we feel, we listen to ourselves. It's been about three months since I was able to return more consistently. And, to my surprise, I found a space here where I can ease the longing for a lighter, more social routine... a space where I connect with incredible people, discover myself, strengthen my self-esteem, and empower myself. Here, I can experiment, feel, express myself without fear. Just allow myself... to let it out, play, dream. Today, I saw that the site has opened a new tool: "Funds." And I confess I thought a lot before coming here to share this with you. I really want/need to invest in myself. Removing some tattoos I got when I was very young and deeply regret; they're affecting my self-esteem. Clothes, heels, toys, equipment, and everything that can make my presence here more enjoyable for those who follow me and for me. But more than that, I'm back living in my family's apartment, which is literally falling apart. And this has been severely limiting me… Not only in terms of parenting, but also in my own well-being. Being able to renovate will also help me gain more support and credibility at home, and thus, I'll even be more present here. I'm embarrassed to open up so much, but anyway...

"I was crazy, but I learned that being crazy was simply refusing to accept half-measures, imposed silences, and forced accommodation. Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage."

Missing myself? I've been completely wiped out by the flu! Oh, how horrible it is to be sick, I get all clingy and needy... I just want to be taken care of and pampered 🥺

I was thinking about going online without any major expectations, but in an attempt to at least not go to sleep feeling frustrated, I went. Without makeup, my face still marked by the tiredness of hours spent in front of books. My mind was racing once again, spinning between the present and, mainly, the future. I simply took off the old sweatshirt I was wearing and put on a half-open robe. My body was crying out for some kind of change in temperature, in sensation. The cold still enveloped me, a cold that is not only from the weather, but also from the day. A cold that lodges itself in the skin, making it tingle, while a hot restlessness boiled inside. A contrast that is difficult to explain. Until it arrived... It all started with After Dark, by Tito & Tarantula, ending with Eric Clapton. More than two hours passed without me noticing, as if time had been suspended just for us. My body responded to the invisible stimuli. Each imagined touch lit a spark under my skin, making my breathing quicken and my senses heighten. I overflowed, not once, not twice, not three times, I almost lost count. By luck or persistence, today, I was not defeated by the day. I ended up warm, despite the freezing day.

I'll finish my duties for the day soon 🙌 I think I'll stay online for a bit to see if this cold weather improves, it's so bad!

The story I posted yesterday got almost 220 THOUSAND views… I'm in shock! I had no idea the site's reach would be that big 👀

My mind was racing today... It was a good Saturday, I managed to catch up on schoolwork, clean, shop, prepare the week's lunches, do some cardio... All while feeling like an ongoing influencer project with a productive routine! Hehe In my daily life, I like to create stories and pretend to be others to pass the time, especially in moments when I might not want to be. Tomorrow I want to go to the coffee festival with my dad, so I couldn't procrastinate today... but I confess I wanted to. I sat in front of the computer now, thinking about going online, relaxing a bit... but I kept looking at my profile... Thinking... Thinking... So many things. So many desires. So many fears. And the question came to me: does anyone care about bios? I rack my brains over this so much... I always thought they don't. But I've heard a few times: "I loved your bio." I think it's interesting to be noticed, not in an obvious way. Anyway, mind racing. Since I no longer have social media... here I am. Thinking out loud. But does anyone care about posts written here?