These days I haven't been able to fikr online, holidays are very complicated for me here. It's been a while since you've been asking me why I disappear, so I decided to speak up now, but now I don't want you to feel sorry, pity, etc... I want you to see me as a strong, warrior woman who faces life's challenges. I have bipolar disorder and it affects me because I go into crisis sometimes and I can't work because I feel really bad. I believe a lot in energy and my intention here has always been to pass on good things to you. I also have my mother who I take care of, she has moderate Alzheimer's so it ends up putting a lot of strain on my mental health. Finally, some of you caught my phase here when I was pregnant, so you know that I'm a mother, sometimes I plan to go to work and something happens to her and I can't stay on. I'm alone with all of this and I only work here at CP because currently I can't work outside. I've been on a 7-year journey here on the site, I've met a lot of cool people, I still do, so I'm now telling you what my life is like outside of here. I am very grateful to everyone who is always with me and knows my story. That's it, guys, I hope you understand, life puts us to the test, it's up to us to face it in the best way possible. Big kiss to everyone, I'll be back soon!