Time for a change... I asked support to change my nickname, now I'll be Doce Devassa 🍭✨ Academic life has been consuming me a lot and, when I'm here, I want lightness, pleasure... I don't want to think about life's problems and this change, that's what it's about. Excited to live and feel this new phase!

I'm so grateful for the kindness! Speechless 💛 I'm slowly responding to all the DMs! I've always been online-only, and the first time I posted something more explicit on my feed, I went through a very unpleasant situation... That's also why I didn't show up here for a long time. But that issue is no longer an issue, especially since I've been exposed to people I wouldn't want to be, and unlike what I imagined, I found support. Now, I didn't feel ready to start without making some "improvements" here; I thought nothing was good enough. But I feel like you've lifted 500 tons off my shoulders... 500 tons of pure self-demand and limiting perfectionism. Happy to have the courage to take this step!

Those who follow me know... I've always been here, coming and going, without ever really having the frequency or creating the content I'd like. I lacked time and, to be honest, courage because of a situation that happened. But life changes, and it has changed a lot. We mature, we feel, we listen to ourselves, and we understand that giving up what makes us feel good and what we want is never an option... I've been coming here regularly for about three months now, at least every week, and I've found a space here where I can ease the longing for a more social routine... a space where I connect with incredible people, discover myself, strengthen my self-esteem, and empower myself. Here, I can experiment, feel, express myself, let off steam, play, and dream. And I confess I thought a lot before coming here to share this with you. But where I'm living is falling apart, I'm gradually renovating, and only the little room where I go online is okay. And today, that's what limits me most when it comes to creating content. I'm embarrassed to open up about it, but anyway... that's it.

"I was crazy, but I learned that being crazy was simply refusing to accept half-measures, imposed silences, and forced accommodation. Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage."

Missing myself? I've been completely wiped out by the flu! Oh, how awful it is to be sick, I get all clingy and needy 🥺

I was thinking about going online without much expectation, but in an attempt to at least avoid going to sleep feeling frustrated, I did. Makeup-free, my face still marked by the exhaustion of hours spent reading. My mind racing once again, spinning between the present and the future. I simply took off the old sweatshirt I was wearing and put on a half-open robe. My body was crying out for some kind of change in temperature, in sensation. The cold still enveloped me, a cold that stems not only from the weather, but also from the day itself. A cold that settles on the skin, making it tingle, while a hot restlessness simmered within. A contrast difficult to explain. Until it arrived... It all began with "After Dark" by Tito & Tarantula, ending with Eric Clapton. More than two hours passed without me noticing, as if time had been suspended just for us. My body responded to the invisible stimuli. Each imagined touch ignited a spark beneath my skin, making my breathing quicken and my senses heighten. I overflowed, not once, not twice, not three times, I almost lost count. Luckily or through persistence, today, I wasn't defeated by the day. I ended up warm, despite the freezing day.

I'll be finishing my day soon 🙌 I think I'll stay online for a bit to see if this cold weather gets better, it's so bad!

The story I posted yesterday got almost 220 THOUSAND views… I'm in shock! I had no idea the site's reach would be that big 👀

It was a good Saturday. I managed to catch up on my studies, clean, shop, prepare my weekly lunches, do some cardio... All while pretending to be an ongoing project of a productive influencer! Hehe. In my daily life, I like to create stories and pretend to be someone else to pass the time, especially when I'd rather not. I planned to go to the coffee festival tomorrow with some friends. I haven't seen them in a while, so I couldn't procrastinate today... but I confess I wanted to. I sat in front of the computer now, thinking about getting online, relaxing a bit... but I kept looking at my profile... Thinking... Thinking... So many things. So many desires. So many fears. And the question came to me: does anyone care about bios? I rack my brains over this so much... I always thought they don't. But I've heard a few times: "I loved your bio." I think it's interesting to be noticed, not in an obvious way. Anyway, mind a million. Since I don't have social media anymore... here I am. Thinking out loud. But does anyone care about posts written here?