You are difficult, you have been through everything, from a naive and faith-filled vision that gave way to bad parents who break more than a phalanx, came the rational, complex and pragmatic phase, opening a very good gap, oh the subtle difference you felt and it was a very close shortcut to apathy and vanity, then the empathy phase came and at a certain point made you have a crisis, I always worry about everyone and no one cares about me, to this revolt of the lack of other people's care, but then came the "worst" phase, you survived loneliness and did not gormetize it, nor hate it deeply nor love it to the point of transforming it into something else, you are neutral, so your future has arrived to heal and soften your wounds