#VIDEOPREMIUM "⁠my love for you" Perhaps a misdirected desire that I want to satisfy ... Without understanding the true depth of what it is to love ... Desire is considered something selfish compared to true love ... How can I talk about what it is true, if not even I really understand ... Would passion be considered selfish compared to the true way of loving? Perhaps an illusion created to quiet our expectation of genuine happiness ... How can we talk about love, if we can't even sacrifice ... How it hurts to see what we want so much elsewhere ... How it hurts to know that I will never be able to embrace that receiving ... your attitude hurts my heart ... it's not your fault you're in your reason ... maybe with adversity i'll understand the value of sacrifice ... give up what i want to fill the empty job ... I wish it didn't hurt so much ... I wish it didn't take so long .... this mourning that didn't have a physical death ... just a death of a soul that is still alive ... because it has to be killed every day ... because keeping her alive makes killing more than a hungry homicide ... I'm sorry, if I could choose not to accept ... I wouldn't think twice about killing ... that feeling that consumes me ... that cripples me and makes me cry ... how I love your look.