Time for a change... I asked support to change my nickname, now I'll be Doce Devassa 🍷✨ Academic life has been consuming me a lot and, when I'm here, I want lightness, pleasure... I don't want to think about life's problems (laughs), and this change is about that. Excited to live and feel this new phase!

I'm so grateful for the kindness! Speechless 💛 I'm slowly responding to all the DMs, but I'm stopping by to say that I'm finally launching my FanClub! I'm still apprehensive about posting content... The first time I posted, I went through a very unpleasant situation... That's also why I didn't show up here for a while, but I think that apprehension will pass over time, especially since I've already been exposed to people I wouldn't want to be, and unlike what I imagined, I found support. I didn't feel ready to launch the FanClub before making some "improvements" here; I thought nothing was good enough. But now I feel like you've lifted 500 tons off my shoulders... 500 tons of pure self-demand and limiting perfectionism. Happy to be taking this step!

Those who follow me know... I've always been here, coming and going, without ever really having the frequency or creating the content I'd like. I lacked time and, to be honest, courage because of a situation that happened. But life changes, and it's changed a lot. We mature, we feel, we listen to ourselves, and we understand that giving up what makes us feel good and what we want is never an option... I've been coming in regularly for about three months now, at least every week (laughs), and I've found a space here where I can ease the longing for a more social routine... a space where I connect with incredible people, discover myself, strengthen my self-esteem, and empower myself. Here, I can experiment, feel, express myself, let off steam, play, and dream. And I confess I thought a lot before coming here to share this with you. But where I'm living is literally falling apart. And today, that's what really limits me when it comes to creating content. I'm embarrassed to open up about it, but anyway... that's it.

"I was crazy, but I learned that being crazy was simply refusing to accept half-measures, imposed silences, and forced accommodation. Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage."

Missing myself? I've been completely wiped out by the flu! Oh, how horrible it is to be sick, I get all clingy and needy... I just want to be taken care of and pampered 🥺

I was thinking about going online without any major expectations, but in an attempt to at least not go to sleep feeling frustrated, I went. Without makeup, my face still marked by the tiredness of hours spent in front of books. My mind was racing once again, spinning between the present and, mainly, the future. I simply took off the old sweatshirt I was wearing and put on a half-open robe. My body was crying out for some kind of change in temperature, in sensation. The cold still enveloped me, a cold that is not only from the weather, but also from the day. A cold that lodges itself in the skin, making it tingle, while a hot restlessness boiled inside. A contrast that is difficult to explain. Until it arrived... It all started with After Dark, by Tito & Tarantula, ending with Eric Clapton. More than two hours passed without me noticing, as if time had been suspended just for us. My body responded to the invisible stimuli. Each imagined touch lit a spark under my skin, making my breathing quicken and my senses heighten. I overflowed, not once, not twice, not three times, I almost lost count. By luck or persistence, today, I was not defeated by the day. I ended up warm, despite the freezing day.

I'll be finishing my day soon 🙌 I think I'll stay online for a bit to see if this cold weather gets better, it's so bad!

The story I posted yesterday got almost 220 THOUSAND views… I'm in shock! I had no idea the site's reach would be that big 👀

My mind was racing today... It was a good Saturday, I managed to catch up on schoolwork, clean, shop, prepare the week's lunches, do some cardio... All while feeling like an ongoing influencer project with a productive routine! Hehe. In my daily life, I like to create stories and pretend to be others to pass the time, especially in moments when I might not want to be. I planned to go to the coffee festival tomorrow with some friends, so I couldn't procrastinate today... but I confess I wanted to. I sat in front of the computer now, thinking about getting online, relaxing a bit... but I kept looking at my profile... Thinking... Thinking... So many things. So many desires. So many fears. And the question came to me: does anyone care about bios? I rack my brains over this so much... I always thought they don't. But I've heard a few times: "I loved your bio." I think it's important to be noticed, not in an obvious way. Anyway, mind racing. Since I no longer have social media... here I am. Thinking out loud. But does anyone care about posts written here?